Monday to Wednesday night had to be some of the longest days of my life. I tried very hard to stay in a good place and focus on what the doctor said...it looked benign. People who know these kind of things assured me that she wouldn't have said this if she wasn't very sure of this. And I did really well.
The doctor had told me that the results would come back rather quickly and I could hear as early as Wednesday. Of course, I spent much of Wednesday sneaking away from the training session I was in to see if she had left a message. On the drive home from the training session, it all kind of hit me. How life-altering this message could be. The plans that would have to be made. The decisions. The management of it all. It overwhelmed me. After holding it all for two days, the floodgates had opened.
I had just enough time to drive from one part of the city to the other, hopping from one job to the next. I spent most of that time losing it and controlling myself on a repeated cycle. As I got closer to work, I managed to pull myself together enough. But I did spend much of my time there continuing to check my messages. Finally, after 5, the doctor had called.
Let me just interject here that this imaging center has provided me with the utmost care and concern. You always expect pediatric places or places that deal with potentially terminal conditions will give incredibly kind and compassionate care. Unfortunately, this isn't always the case as my aunt has discovered as she battles breast cancer. But the place I went to was amazing from setting the appointment to talking to the doctor about the biopsy results.
So I called the doctor, on her cell phone!, and she told me the news.
BENIGN. Come back in a year.
And since that moment, I haven't stopped smiling.
Yay! I'm so happy it's benign! Smile away and celebrate!
Posted by: Heidi | July 22, 2011 at 09:53 PM
I've cried a couple of times reading your blog. This is the first time I cried happy tears, though!!! YAY!!!
Posted by: Real Housewife of Allegheny Cahnty | July 28, 2011 at 05:13 PM
yay yay ya - i dont know how i missed this post in my reader but im so glad to hear you are ok!!!! i agree with you the sea is a soul energiser for me and im not the same without my holiday to the beach!! I hope it energises you for the coming year, im sorry if i hurt you with my previous comment.
Posted by: mizasiwa | August 04, 2011 at 03:31 AM