Something very unexpected happened this week...on Wednesday, my beta HCG numbers went up instead of down. Still nowhere near where they should be, but still an increase. So, the doctor, a little surprised, called me in for an ultrasound to "see what's going on in there" for Friday. I was expecting nothing. I was more than prepared. I knew I would not cry or be upset. I made peace with all this almost two weeks ago. (Yes, I would be sad, but not the wailing and gnashing of teeth sadness from two weeks ago...).
He saw the gestational sac.
He saw the yolk sac, bigger than last week,
He saw a fetal pole, a new and welcome addition to the gestational sac.
And?
He saw a heartbeat.
Huh?
I heard him say, "Ha! Well how about that?!" I did not respond.
In my mind, this meant, there's some other crazy, new and rare thing going on in there and I did not want to hear about it.
But then he put the sound on and tried to get the heartbeat on the monitor (he couldn't-too early) and everyone in the room was confused. I think my jaw hit the floor from the exam table almost immediately. He showed me this movement in the gestational sac. Now, normally, I look at that screen at this early stage and think, "These doctors are just making crap up...it's all just gray and fuzzy," but this time, I could see movement in the sac.
Sigh...
When I called to tell Remodel Man, well, he had some choice words for this surprise. It is, quite frankly, ridiculous.
So we continue waiting. Again. The doctor emphasized that it is still early and implied that there is a still a great chance that this will not work. I wasn't upset or offended at what could be construed as his negativity-in this biz, this is reality. I wasn't jumping up and down, screaming joyfully at this news. I was stunned and more than cautious.
Later in the day, they called with my blood results-beta numbers went up again; again, just a little. I'm continuing on with the progesterone, but he added a one time shot of estradiol-has anyone ever had to do this before??? It was an intramuscular shot (ouch!) and the side effects on the pamphlet were terrifying. Hopefully, this is truly a one-time need. I do think this might be indicative of my "advanced maternal age." Depressing.
So, wow. Crazy, crazy stuff.
Holy cow! I'm so excited there's a heartbeat! Hoping it sticks around!!!
Posted by: Heidi | June 18, 2011 at 10:02 AM