it probably is. And this time, it was too good to be true. While everything seemed to line up well, lots of mature follicles, a great response to the meds, a casual cycle, the cycle didn't work. Blood tests results came back on Monday with a big, fat negative. I wasn't surprised. I really wasn't. But it truly doesn't make it feel any better. I found that it wasn't hearing that the test was negative that was hard-it was the telling. Telling all the people I included on this very personal journey that our last hope had been dashed. That we have reached the end of our journey without the results we wanted. That it's over. It's why I waited to write this post...the telling really is too hard.
Sigh...
So now we pick ourselves up and move on. We figure out a way to heal our hearts and provide a happy life for ourselves. We'll be fine, we always are. But in the meantime, I'm a little sad.
Big, big hugs. You have every right to be sad.
Posted by: Shayne | April 13, 2011 at 10:36 AM
Oh!!! I'm so sorry! I was hoping your silence had other reasons. Many hugs!
Posted by: Heidi | April 13, 2011 at 09:32 PM
You are brave and amazing. I am praying for a life that is brave and amazing for you. I love you girl. You are in my thoughts.
Posted by: Ann kimmel | April 14, 2011 at 03:07 AM
I'm sad with you. The wine bottle is chilled and I am here for you.
Posted by: Porsche Nut | April 14, 2011 at 03:41 PM
I haven't been reading blogs in a while, but I thought of you and wanted to check in... and I'm sad too. I'm sorry that this is such a roller-coaster of emotions. Hope you are doing well & know that you're in my thoughts and prayers.
Posted by: Stacey | May 10, 2011 at 01:09 AM