eating. You thought I was going to say crying, didn't you? Surprisingly, no. I am by nature a crier-when sad, mad, or laughing hysterically, but for some reason, I'm all dried up over the lost pregnancy. I don't really want to talk about it with people, because what do you say? What can they say? So I eat.
During the very short-lived pregnancy, I found myself ravenous...I had a hunger that literally could not be filled. I was eating us out of house and home and I couldn't help it. When we sensed danger lurking around the corner, I decided that if this pregnancy went south, I would gorge myself on Doritos and Dr. Pepper....and I have...over and over and over again.
I know this isn't healthy. I know this isn't the way to be eating. But I can't help thinking of how well I was eating during the pregnancy, and that didn't do a darn thing to save the pregnancy. So, I am giving myself this week. I can eat what I want, when I want and how much I want. After this upcoming weekend, I will go back to eating in moderation and relatively healthful foods.
For now, though, anyone care to join me for a bag of Doritos?
I can do you one better. Get the garden salsa sun chips. They are dorito-like, enough so that I almost ate the entire bag the other night. They're also multi-grain. So, you can gorge yourself on those and feel less guilty. You need to save up for the package I'm sending to you anyway. ;-)
Posted by: Black Belt Mama | April 20, 2009 at 05:11 PM
Hey buddy, first time reader from BBM's site and I'm really sorry to hear about your recent heartache. (#):( Just keep on being positive and try and find yourself some "Doritos Project X-13D". They're supposed to be out of this world! (#):D
Posted by: Bush Mackel | April 20, 2009 at 06:55 PM
I am, as we "speak," sucking down a Chik-fil-a strawberry milkshake - with whipped cream. And I am dutifully emptying the house of Easter candy so my DD won't eat it - by eating it myself. Mmmmm, Sarris solid chocolate eggs, bite size, perfect for my desk drawer at work. I can sneak those while the kids are working! I think we need some margaritas to go with the chips! Up for it?
Posted by: Porsche Nut | April 20, 2009 at 07:22 PM
@Porsche Nut - Those Chik-il-a milkshakes are a guilty pleasure all onto themselves!
Posted by: Bush Mackel | April 20, 2009 at 07:34 PM
I am going thru just the opposite of gorging myself. Since I've been going thru this divorce, food just doesn't interest me - it's just a way to keep functioning. I am getting over the emotional turmoil now and am leveling out but am still not all THAT interested in food. I never thought I'd say those words! But I am hoping that the awful preoccupation with food I used to have does not return. I hope the approx. 30 lbs. I've lost since January don't return either...
Posted by: Martial Arts Mom | April 21, 2009 at 02:57 PM
Absolutely! Bring on the Doritos. Actually, I'm even more interested in the Dr Pepper!
Thinking of you.
Posted by: Stacey | April 22, 2009 at 04:06 PM
I'm sorry, RG. :-(
Posted by: Steve | April 23, 2009 at 01:07 AM