Unsettled

Hi.  Here I am.  Did you miss me?  Yea...that's what I thought...

Life here has been a bit unsettling recently, hence the silence.  Lots of posts fill my head all day long, but to post them might jeopardize aspects of my life, and I don't have that fight in me right now.  There's nothing tragic going on, but things have just been difficult.  Three hours of sleep a night, sacrificing two of my jobs for the sake of one, stressed beyond my own comprehension, being told Builder Boy needs speech therapy, being told by family that they think Builder Boy has something wrong with him emotionally or developmentally (depression? Asp.Berger's?), continued financial woes (thanks infertility!), a panic that I am now 35 1/2 and my miracle second baby will not happen leaving Builder Boy alone, the end of the school year (always a harried time), students of mine causing me much concern (see, we teachers do care!), the discovery of many hairs of a bland, boring and old color (not saying the name makes it less real to me...), Remodel Man beginning his job search upon receiving his MBA on Sunday (will be a good thing once job is had...in the meantime-ugh), and recently having my work ethic questioned for the first time since I took my first job at 15 scooping ice cream for $3.05 an hour. 

I haven't been online much recently for pleasure, so no comments from me on your blogs-sorry about that, too.  Today I attempted to view a blog I've been reading for a long time now (over a year...could it be two?) only to find it went password protected.  My first thought is one of concern for the blogger.  My next thought hearkens back to the high school days of insecurity-did I say something to offend?  Does this blogger not want me reading his/her blog?  (Yep, apparently my insecurities make it seem like I think the world revolves around me.)   Then,  went onto another blog I read with a great readership only to find that something has been going on of which I know nothing, but it didn't sound too good.

So, unsettled.  I have many things to share with you...a finished bathroom (finished!!!!!), an awesome pirate birthday party, my attempts at being a better mother/wife/housekeeper, my pride in Remodel Man for his MBA, a lovely Mother's Day, and general meanderings.  These will come as soon as I am getting more sleep, working less, and feeling more settled. 

Hoping all of you are well.  I'll be catching up with you soon.

Comments

[Rita]

welcome back.
Missed ya loads.
Rita

[Black Belt Mama]

So when exactly do you plan to get more sleep? You need a SPA YEAR woman! And just for the record, I've never met anyone with better work ethic in my entire life. There aren't too many women who could juggle all you do, and do it all so incredibly well.